Archive for January, 2012

Winter Rose Part (2)

Chapter 2




“Give him something! You can’t let him die!” Taemin yelled behind the metal bars. “Are you deaf! Give him medicine!”



“Or what” the guards coming closer to him, at first taemin feel a lil bit startled “What are you gonna do huh? You should to know what your position, you have no right here!” The guards spat.


“His ally will come to rescue him! And you’ll be sorry when that time is come!”


“Really?” The guards laugh at him viciously, he lean his face closer to taemin, see same eyes level with him “He was abandoned and alone when we found him. His ally threw him away, like rubbish, left there to die” The guard voice is cold. Taemin’s eyes delighting in the shock and terror filling after he heard it. The guard smiled darkly, turning and walking away.


“I’ll pleasure you!” He screamed before the guard walk too far away from their cells.


The guard raised one of his eyebrow and turn his head to taemin. “I’ll do anything to please you. Come on, I know how lonely soldier can be in this solitary, you can use me to satisfied your sexual needs..”


“What makes you think i’ll accept your offer?” The guard crossed his arms in his chest.


“Just give me chance to prove how good it felt when my mouth sucks your cock”


The guard stay there, thinking hard about the consequences, taking prisoners out is too risky for him.


“I won’t tell anyone.. I just want you to give him medicine..and blanket” added taemin attempted not to pleaded too much.


“Why did you care so much for him” Said the guard, looking at taemin’s face.


“I don’t know either.. I just can’t let him die”


That day, the guard brought taemin into a small room, there was more light compare to his cell. Taemin kneeling down and took the man length in his mouth. After spilling his seed in his mouth, the guard keep his promise and give taemin medice and blanket to him.




Yunho awake with bandage around his body. Taemin staring at him with a smile on his face. “You awake Mr Jung?”


“How long I’ve been sleep?”


“I don’t know how long, no watch here, but you sleep long enough and I don’t want to wake you up”


Yunho couldn’t tell what had just happened, his wounds now was wrapped in bandaged, no more blood in his body though he still can’t freely move, pain still consume him everytime he make a single move. “You..did this to me?”


Taemin come closer and sat beside him, he lifted yunho’s hand and hold it “Yes..i asked the guard to give you medicine and blanket, i cleaned your body with warm water and sterilized your wounds when you sleep. They give me bandage to wrapped your wounds”


Yunho blink once, he can’t believe that he still alive and he glad for it. This boy just taken care of him, “Why. ?”


Taemin locked their fingers together and smiled.


“Because I’m not yet telling you what my hobby is..”


Yunho unable to voice what he was feeling, he hold the tears that swelling in his eyes “Thank you,” he heard the soft reply from yunho before the man began to shut his eyes and drove to sleep again.





“I love to dance! I have a dream to be a dancer like MJ one day!” the young boy moving his body so fast to every corner in the room, exclaim his happiness in expressive move. Yunho hardly to catch the move with his eyes, he tried to get up in careful move, right now the pain felt less than when the first time he came to prison. Taemin told yunho to not move, he knelt down in front of the other man, forcing him to meet his eyes. “I want to dance with you taemin”


He didn’t know the reason why as taemin raised one hand slowly and lifted it to touch yunho’s cheek. Yunho flinched for a second when taemin caressed his bruises in his face.


“I’ll dance with you Mr Jung, soon after you healing. I can promise you that.”


Yunho smiled, his eyes glisten with unshed tears. “Can I hug you?”


Taemin hesitate for a while but then he move forward, yunho wrapped his arms around him and held taemin close. They looked each other in the eyes for a second, taemin avoid their gaze as he could feel a blush on his cheeks.


He could feel yunho’s heartbeat against his, he close his eyes and buried his head in yunho’s embrace. Yunho humming some song that taemin forgot where he ever heard it. “What song is this?”


“Ehmm..” Yunho put his chin on taemin’s neck “It was song from drama that I watched long time ago..”


“What drama..?”


“.. secret garden..”


The younger boy raised an eyebrow at him and gave a sheepish smirk. “Why do you laugh?” yunho asked eventually.


“It’s funny to know big guy like you, a soldier, watch romantic drama like secret garden” Taemin chuckled slightly.


“Hey.. what’s wrong with drama?“ Yunho gave him puppy dog eyes and pouting lips before he started to tickling taemin. They spent minutes tickling each other but then stop when yunho jolted in pain.


Taemin eyes snap open and looked horrified at the man. Yunho moaned in pain when accidentally taemin’s elbow hit his ribs. Taemin forgot that yunho not fully recovered.


“I’m so sorry! Are you okay?” Taemin pressing his hands carefully to yunho’s body to make sure that the wounds is not open again.


Yunho bit his lip “I’m fine taemin”


“I’m sorry” Taemin hiccupped and began sobbing even though yunho telling him that he was okay. The other man leaned forward and kissed each eyelid delicately, he cupped the side of taemin’s face who leaned into the touch “I’m fine taemin.. Don’t cry, I can’t stand it to see you cry”


Taemin smile, he looked up at him and ready to say something but keep it shut when they heard the metal bars sliding open “Mr Lee Taemin!” A voice more like an order ruined their moment “I need to see you in my office Now!”


Yunho raised an eyebrow at the guard who gave him disgusted look.


“I have to go”


Before taemin rose, yunho grabbing his arms “Why Choi always asking you to his office?”


“ just a small interrogation… ” Taemin said hurriedly as he walked away with the guard. Yunho gave a suspicious glance to the guards, Choi minho, before he locked the metal bars.


Something is not right, and he doesn’t have any idea what it was. It was Taemin they always looking for, almost every night. It happened almost a month.




Yunho can’t forget how pale taemin when he come back to their cell, there was no way interrogation like taemin told him, that choi minho want from taemin. It something else, and yunho didn’t like the thought of possibility that maybe happened between them two.



Taemin followed minho, up the stairs, into the room where he was to service him. Minho took him again that night. Taemin did whatever he asked as he spread his legs as far as minho wanted. He arched up and cried out in pain when he felt minho in him. The pain was so great, Taemin couldn’t even scream. His entire body tensed, and only a few sob escaped from his mouth.



When it was all over, Taemin will clean himself before being led back to his cell. Sometime he wished he doesn’t have to return to his cell so yunho will not have an idea of what had happened here.



“Could I have more blanket and medicine?” It was the deal between them, taemin will pleasure him and minho will give everything he want.



“You’re so lucky that I’m nice to you, other guard will never treat you this nice”



Taemin was given a new blanket and more medicine for yunho.



There was no watch in prison or the window to see if it was day or night right now since they locked them in underground prison. But Taemin know that he had leave too long. Yunho probably was already fall asleep right now, the lights is turned off by other guard. It’s really dark for taemin to walk to their cell because no more lights on.



He open the metal bars slowly, as he thought yunho already sleeping. He approached yunho in slow steps. He hold pained sob coming from him as he crawled to sleep beside yunho’s. He lied on his stomach, shut his eyes and fell a sleep minutes later.


The thing is, yunho is never sleep, he opened his eyes widely and watched the teenage boy beside him. There was new blanket and other healer he brought in their cell, yunho feel like his world broken into pieces. Whatever taemin did, it must be because of him.


He had failed as a soldier, but he didn’t want to fail as a man for taemin.




Next morning, yunho move closer to metal bars. Taemin still sleeping in other corner of the room, and yunho really hope he didn’t wake up yet. He needs to talk with minho, he need to know the truth. The guard always checks the prisoner everyday. He waited until they passed their cell to speak privately to the guard and finally he coming closer.


“What are you doing to him!” Minho stopped his step and standing in front of him behind the metal bars. Yunho making sure his voice is quiet enough so taemin can’t hear them.


“What?” Minho raised an eyebrow. “Who do you think you are, talking to me in such a manner?”


“I know you did something to him” Yunho voice turned malicious. “What ever you do, make it stop!”


Minho rolled his eyes before he yanked yunho’s hair and hit his face against the metal bars “Listen! You have no power against me, whatever I did to him is not your business” Minho’s voice got higher and higher and he spat the last word at yunho. Yunho look at taemin and he practically glad that the younger boy still sleeping and didn’t hear their conversation.


“Do you want to know what I did to him?” He asked, continuing to slam yunho’s face against the metal bars.He leaned forward, lip curling in a sneer.


“You should to have heard him moan when I fuck him, the look in his place is priceless everytime I came inside him.. “


“Stop..” Yunho warned, his voice low and scared, fists trembling with anger and frustration.


“He said when I took him but yet he keep coming to my place every night. Do you know why?”


Yunho was shaking with a dizzying mixture of rage and pain, he was so furious so confused, deep in his gut was screaming at the guard to stop but he really want to know the truth, the truth that will never revealed if he ask taemin.


Minho leaned in close, whispering in his ear “He let me raped him because of you, he didn’t want to see you die. After we fucked he’ll ask for medicine for you.” A vicious smile split his face when he yunho’s expression.


“You’re useless man, you failed for your country, you can’t even protect him. If I were you, I will choose to die than to lose my honour as soldier. The world will known you as pathetic loser Jung Yunho”


Yunho’s body was beginning to tremble, his breath came faster and faster, his eyes glazing over slightly as he began to hyperventilate. The memories coming back, when sounds and images of his torturing, they beaten him and broken his leg. When their ripped his skin with their knife. He felt the fear and the pain in him again.


Choi minho is right, he is useless man, failed as a soldier. Abandoned and thrown away like garbage by his ally. Yet he still managed to live. Whole this time he thought he was the one who protect taemin, but the reality is so cruel. Taemin is the one who protect him, he sacrificed himself to make pathetic loser like him still alive. His mind filled with guilt and shame, he couldn’t breathe, he was failing man. He didn’t deserve to live.


Yunho heard the soft rustle of sheets as taemin moved to look at me “Mr Jung are you okay?” he crawling beside yunho.


“Don’t touch me!” Anger clouded his vision. Taemin taken back, for almost a month locked in this prison, he never had heard yunho shouting at him. Is he in pain? But however worse the pain felt, yunho never sounded so broken like this. He always left the pain for himself.


Taemin’s face looked terrifying, yunho move to the corner, sobbing silently. Taemin really want to hug him, he want to make all the pain away. Anything he will do to keep him from seeing yunho like this. Yunho face was so white, lifeless.


The boy looked at him, but sad nothing, his eyes filled with tears.





Punches to the face sent him stumbling to the side, tripping himself to the ground. A man standing behind him, he put his hand around his throat and tightening slowly there. “Why did you betrayed our country?” Yunho tried to clawed at the hands, his lungs burned, he couldn’t breathe, couldn’t move. “I want to live yunho, you know our country will lose this battle, I don’t want to die!” The man reach yunho’s hand and crack it.Yunho curled up, rolling into a ball. Another kicks sent into his stomach. His body aching, burning as he tried to breathe, there was a moment when yunho pray that his used to be comrade, ended his life than torture him like this.


”J..just kill me” yunho heard of laughter ringing in his ears. He used to laugh with this man, and it shook yunho that the man he thought as best friend betrayed him and now beaten him. His vision blurred when a fist landed hard to his right eye. He grabbed yunho hair and smacked it to the ground. Yunho whimper from pain, the blood downing his head.


The man knelt down beside him and started to ripped yunho skin with his knife, he pushed deeper to yunho’s body and slice his skin open. Yunho’s heart beat faster, it’s the time, his friend going to kill him and he was glad because finally he can free from this tormenting. He closed his eyes and hope this gonna be the end.


“Mr Jung?” A soft voice calling his name, “Do you need something?” Yunho open his eyes and looked at taemin who sit beside him, waiting and praying for him to wake up.


“Taemin..” he breathed heavily.


“I’m here Mr Jung..” taemin help him to get up. Yunho held his hand and tightened up his grips. “Promise me taemin, promise me whatever happened to me, you’ll stay alive”


“I.. I can’t..” he shook his head. “I can’t promise something that I can’t keep” His eyes were red, framed by dark circles from lack of sleep.


His eyes widened in panic, taemin biting his lip. He leaned forward and wrapped his arms in yunho, burying his face in his shoulder. Tears falling down quickly from his face, yunho can feel each drop wetting his shoulder.


He doesn’t know the reason why yunho talk like he will go away from him. That day they spent the day hugging each other until they fall asleep.




The next night, minho came for taemin. He follow the guard, he need more medicine for yunho and change the bandage to wrap the wounds. Yunho hold his arm before he go, pleading with his eyes not to go, sometime taemin wonder if yunho already know the truth about him.


“I’ll comeback soon Mr Jung” And he go to follow the guard.



As usual, minho will bring him up to the stairs to small room. Today it’s unusual, he has bad feeling for this. Taemin took half a step backwards, minho stood there for a long moment watching him, neither of them moving. “I..i can’t do this, I need to back to my cells” Minho stared at him and hold him “Please Mr Choi, I’ll let you use me other night but now I really need to go back”



At first minho hold him still, taemin struggled to let him free, and then minho let him go.



Taemin lose his breath, he shakily made his way to his cells. He open the metal bars and approached yunho who still curled up beneath the blanket.



“M..Mr Jung..” he rolled over yunho’s body to face him and it was surprised him. Taemin mouth hanging open and he can’t stop the tears running down his face.


Yunho, he is not breathing. There were so many bloods coming from his body. A red stain beneath him and a knife piercing his belly


“Why Mr Jung.. why..” He paused at a loss for words as well. He keep shaking yunho’s body though he knew that it was no use. “We promise to dance together….” Taemin caressed yunho’s cheek.


“You asked me to stay alive ..”


He knelt down beside yunho’s, glancing at him from the corner of his eye, and then looking at the knife. Taemin take the knife over in his hands


“And you know I can’t live without you” With trembling hands he brought the knife to his stomach and he pressed it inside. He felt the tip of the knife presses to his stomach. Blood flowing from his skin, hot on his flesh, he was panting now and he press harder.


Taemin smiled.


He lay beside yunho. There was no pain as he felt the blood in front of his shirt. He holds yunho’s hands and whisper.


“I love you Mr Jung.. let’s meet again in another life”



And the world began to go black.






Winter Rose Part (1)


Sumarry :

When war happened in South  Korea




Pairing :

Yunho/ Taemin



Author : Boongie XD



Chapter 1/2



“What’s your name?” taemin startled when he heard the other man voice coming from the corner in the dark room. It felt like a dream as taemin curled his body, hugging his knees in the corners of small room which he believed that it was prison. He doesn’t understand how comes he ended here, he just remember the gun voice, fire, bomb exploded and blood in everywhere before he passed out and wake up here. As reality sank in, he turned his face to see a man with black hair, suited in soldier uniform, his face soaked with blood, one of the man’s eyes was black and looked to be swollen shut.




Taemin can see more blood drying on his suit. “Yunho. Jung Yunho” he said with a cracking voice. Taemin bit his lip for a moment before answer him.




“I won’t hurt you”..” He said after saw taemin staring at his wounds.


“You’re soldier?”




Taemin cleared his throat “Why are you here?”


“Just a bad luck” he said smiling bitterly, taemin can saw pain in yunho’s eyes as the other man clutched his hand on his chest. Taemin realized that the man lied to him, he must be had serious injury beneath that clothes.


“And why are you here taemin?”


Taemin didn’t look up at him, his chin tucked against his chest “They caught me when my family tried to run away“



Yunho saw taemin open his mouth before closing it again, there was a sudden look of fear and nausea that overtook his face.



“What about your family?” Yunho finally asked. Yunho noticed the boy flinch at the sudden words before looking up at Yunho slowly.



There was paused for a moment before taemin rolled over his body to facing the wall and closed his eyes “They kill them all..i don’t know why they didn’t kill me”



“I..I’m sorry for your lost”



Yunho got no answer but he knows that the boy was secretly crying. Yunho could imagine those fresh tears sliding down the boy’s face.




It was really stressful to put in dark and small room, taemin miss the sun light, he missed the way the wind touch his face. He missed his family, but they are gone. They killed his family and the cruelest thing is they let taemin live, alone and suffer in prison.




“Taemin..” he heard the man calling his name. “What is your hobby?” taemin glanced at the soldier but quickly returning his gaze to the metal bars. “Before become soldier I really love to sing.. I thought I’m going to be a singer instead of holding gun but then..”



“Stop!” yunho heard the boy screamed at him, tear is ready to running down the boy’s pale cheek “I don’t want to know about your goddamn hobby! I don’t want to talk! Don’t you realize it!”



Taemin saw yunho smiled at him, there was no anger in his face even after taemin yelled at him “I’m sorry.. I won’t talk to you if that what you want” he said before turned his body face the wall.


Taemin feel guilty for snapping at him, but yunho, he should understand that taemin was hurt and sad for losing his whole family right now. He had never expected in his life that he’s gonna ended in prison like this. He miss his family, his home, his friends in school, he miss his life. He hates this war. For whoever started this war, hell is the only place deserved for them.



“Food!” a man brings them food, it was hard to called it food. They feed the prisoners with rotten food. But taemin has to eat it if he wants to survive. He has to live until someone save them.


Taemin chewing his food, pretending that the food taste good so he didn’t vomit again. His gaze drop on the man who still sleeping in the other corner. His mind wondering,



What stories behind the soldier? Why he ended here? Why his comrade didn’t save him? Why so many blood in his clothes? Did the guards torture him before taemin comes here?


Suddenly he felt bad for yelling at him “Mr Jung .. your you want me to bring it there?”


At first there was no sound of movement, but then taemin heard heavy breathes coming from him. “You can have it.. I’m not hungry”




Taemin didn’t know how long he has been locked here, but counting from the time it should be three days after taemin put in the prison. He didn’t talk much with yunho, and he didn’t mind since he prefers to silence than to talk with a stranger. But deep inside his heart, taemin knows that yunho is not bad person.


Taemin still hugging his knees, watching the guy from other corner, he didn’t move or touch the food the guards brought for them. Taemin moving closer to see him, make sure if he still alive or dead. He watching shuddering breaths shake yunho’s body, he is painting in obvious pain, cold sweat running down his face. Taemin suddenly have a terrifying idea of what had happened to this soldier.



He then just realized that the guy never move from his side.  Taemin approached him slowly, his eyes went huge and round when he see yunho condition in close. Most of the man’s clothes ripped, his leg is broken. He can’t stop looking and suddenly he hardly breathing when he saw yunho’s ribs were still poking up against his skin.



Taemin was panting, shallow breaths coming in as he fought the urge to vomit. The emotions were racing through his head, shock, disgust and fear, were running high in his head. He run to the vomiting in the sink, head rested in toilet seat.



Tears escaping his eyes slowly, his breath is heavy. He didn’t understood, what kind of human did those things to yunho. What he had done until he deserved it. It was such a miracle that he still alive with that condition.



And yet.. the man still acting so nice to him, trying to talk with him and console him when he even barely to breath.



Taemin wash his mouth with water, before he walk to yunho side again.



The man had his arms wrapped around himself protectively.

“A..are you okay Mr Jung?” Yunho open his eyes for awhile before he shut it again. It was instinct when taemin touched that black hair, some of it hardened with dried blood. Taemin caressed his hair in soft movement. “Tell me.. what should I do to less your pain”



There was a pause, the sound of quick breathing “I feel cold..”.


Taemin shifted his body to lays beside yunho and hug him from behind carefully not to touch the wounds. “It’s okay..everything is gonna be alright mr jung”



For the first time after they took him to prison, yunho can finally sleeping without feeling pain in his body.





Lies ~Chapter 3

Warning : AU/Angst/NC 17/Mpreg


Pairing : Yunho/ Jaejoong (Yunjae), Yunho/ Taemin (Yuntae), Yunho/ Changmin (Homin), Jaejoong / Yoochun (Jaechun)


Author Rant : If you dislike Yunjae or Yuntae or Homin click back, and if mpreg is not cup of your tea then GTFO, I don’t want you to rant about my fics in your twitter!


And if you hate the way I ship them, the door is open for you to leave

〆(`・∀・´o) GO AWAY!!  This is my fanfic I can write whatever I want

Note : For Yoochun fans I’m sorry but in this fic I have to make him as a bad guy (forgive me kay? *runs)

Thanks ~Boongie





Yunho date jaejoong for almost a year in their high school, both deeply in love, they ignore the biggest border between them, yunho coming from wealthy family while jaejoong just an orphan, yunho reassured him that he will accept jaejoong no matter what,


When jaejoong sure that this love will last forever, he was wrong. Suddenly yunho changed, he become so cold and avoid jaejoong, he thought the other man just need more space for himself. One day jaejoong found himself that he is pregnant with yunho’s child. The reaction from yunho is so far away from what he expected. Yunho refused to responsible and told jaejoong to abort the child.


Jaejoong told him that he aborted the child, but what will happen when yunho find out that jaejoong never aborted the child seventeen years ago.









Chapter 3


“But dad I love him!” Yunho hoped his voice hadn’t sounded as shaky when he said it, he move closer to a man he respect and fear the most at the same time.


“He is not worthy for you! Break your relationship with than orphan!” The word is clear, yunho feel his heart burn in anger as he clenched his hands into fist.


“I won’t! I always let you control my life! But now I will never let you control me anymore!”


His father rose from his seat, his already wrinkled brow creasing further.


“You dare to against my order?” his father responded calmly. “Do you think you can survive without me? You’re just spoiled little brat!”


“I can live without your money!”


“Really?” The older man chuckled ironically, a vicious grin in his face. “Sure you do, but can your sister survive? You knew it right that Jihye suffer for his cancer? How long do you think she can survive without my money paying for her hospital bill?”



For a moment yunho stared at his father, trying to piece together those words that spoken from him. “Did you just use Jihye to threaten me?” It seemed like he was having hard time breathing, his chest hurt, he had no idea what his father talking about “How could you dad! She is your daughter! And you use her for your own benefit!”


“She is not my daughter, your dead mom cheat on me with other man! She think she can keep that secret to her grave but it such a pity that I knew it right before she died!”


Yunho step back, his face twisted in anger for a moment before shifting once more into distress.


He had a dozen questions burning in the back of his mind


Jihye is not his blood sister.


His mother cheated with other man.


His dad uses his sister to make him follow his order.


 That confusion question keep running inside his head.“What if..what if I’m not your son either?” He paused catching his shaking breath “Don’t you think you wasted your money for me”


His father stared at him, unmoved. “I’m not that stupid yunho, I checked your DNA over and over again until I was sure that you’re indeed my son.”


Yunho’s eyes got really big, he looked shocked, scared. “I..i’ll be happier to hear that I’m not your son, at least I can relieved that I’m not a devil’s son!”


“I’m a devil? Don’t you think i was kind enough to raise Jihye like my own child?!” The older man spat. “Stop this non sense! This is an order, leave that orphan! Told him to abort the baby, I will pay for it. If I caught you still seeing him, I will stop my support for Jihye, without medical treatment she will die immediately.”


Yunho was still dazed. He wanted to wake up, to find that this whole awful scenario his life had become was just a bad dream, and soon he will wake up from it. “Think about it my son.” His father whispered as he walked through the door and leave yunho alone in that empty big house.


Suddenly anger mixed with confusion and depression, he felt as his heart ripped from his body. He had no words now, nothing but angry, confused, hurt feelings coursing through his veins.


“I’m sorry jae..”



Changmin woke up, he heart soft sounds of sleeping yunho beside him. The bed was warm, like it had been in the past when they still sleep together here. Changmin pulled the blanket to cover their bodies. Last night was incredible, yunho looked exhausted and asleep after they had sex on the sofa and changmin with so much effort bring him back to his bedroom.



He missed yunho so much, and he glad that right now his husband sleeping beside him. Changmin stared at yunho who curled up beside him on the bed. Yunho still naked covered only by changmin’s robe. Changmin stroking his husband cheek softly, he remembered about last night when both of them driving in rough sex, that was the first time after almost a year they had sex again. He smiled watching his husband when he still sleeping like a child.



Yunho mumbled something between his sleep, “Jae..” suddenly all happiness shattered like broken glass when he heard that name.


Changmin pushed yunho’s body away from him.


Jaejoong jaejoong jaejoong jaejoong What so good about him? Why can’t he satisfied with me?


Changmin cursed in his mind, he was angry and jealous even with only a mention of that name. Almost three years they married and yunho never stop bringing that name in their life. It was yunho’s ex name, it’s not bother changmin at first knowing that yunho, dated many men and women in his life, but this one is the only one he remembered, there must be something special in jaejoong that made yunho keep thinking about him. And it was unpleasant thing for changmin.


“Good morning..” changmin said, keeping his voice soft as he hide anger within. Yunho open one eye before rolling to lays on his back “Morning min”


“Want to breakfast or shower first?”


Yunho sighing, he stretched and pushing himself up into sitting position before he realized that he wore nothing and he felt sticky.


Yunho opening his second eye as he realize that he was naked “Did we..”


“Sex?” Changmin said quickly “Yes, many times until I lost count how many times you came in me”


Yunho a little bit hesitant but in the end he said it softly “Sorry.. I never mean to”


“What does it matter?” Changmin answered loudly, leaning himself to kiss yunho. “We’re married, it’s normal for us to had sex”


“We already discussed about this changmin,” Yunho said, swiftly moving out of the bed. “We no longer husband and wife in next couple months, we’re in progress to divorce”


Changmin get up from the bed, moving closer to yunho, his head leaned forward and he kissed yunho with passion he had shown last night “Give me second chance yunho, let me prove my self that I can change to be a better person and I’m worthy for your love” he whispered “I love you yunho”


Yunho pushed his wife’s body from him lightly, he gave him apologetic glance “I did changmin, I was once love you until I found you slept with another guy, and for our love, I gave you one more chance but you ruined it and betrayed me again, and again”


“I stop seeing kyuhyun! And swear to God I never cheat on you again!” Changmin felt the tears ready to sliding down his face, but he fought the urge to cry “Please yunho.. give me one more chance.. I know you still love me..” he pleaded.


“I..can’t changmin..I’m sorry” Yunho smiled bitterly, “I’m just human changmin, I can be hurt, I can feel pain. And I don’t want to feel it again.”


Changmin let the silence return, the tears running down on his face, his stare lingered in the doorway, watching as his husband figure leaving him alone in their used to be bedroom.


It was his fault, his mistakes, yunho telling the truth. He gave changmin chances but he always end up to cheat on him again and again.



Why we always end up hurts someone we love?



Yunho walked to the bathroom, his body is sticky and he is exhausted, the memory of last night with changmin vaguely playing in his mind. But it wasn’t something that bothered him, it was about his ex-lover, jaejoong, and his son though yunho didn’t know yet if taemin is his son or not. He tried not to think about anything, finding that taking a bath maybe will be the perfect way of relieving some of his stress. Yunho dropped the silky robe from his body and climbed into the tub. He rested in the water, washed his hair and cleaned his face.



The felt of guilt, shame and disgust of himself filling his head, he can’t stop thinking about taemin, a young boy he always spend time with is his son, his SON with jaejoong.



Yunho had million questions in his mind, each demanding attention in its own right begging to be asked. He drained the water and stepped out, drying himself off before dressing himself. If he gonna ask someone it just one person who can give him answer. He has to meet jaejoong.




The man took a moment to ring the bell, he was standing in the front door almost half an hour, thinking about possibilities that may come up. But what ever may happen, he braves himself to take the risk. He needs to talk with jaejoong. Talk about their son, and it was the right time since taemin in school and today he has day off from his duty as a doctor.



He take a deep breath as he push the bell, “I’m coming” he heard the voice from the inside, the door open with jaejoong’s eyes widened to find who is coming to his house.


“Jae..?” Yunho staring at him, curious expression crossed his face as he catches bruise on jaejoong neck. Yunho looking at his ex-lover wrist, there is another bruise there with finger shaped mark, jaejoong quickly pulls his sleeve down to cover it when he notice yunho staring at it. Yunho look at jaejoong’s face.


At their first time encounter, yunho noticed how truly awful his ex-lover looked, red puffy eyes and dark circles around his eyes from lack of sleep. But those bruises, he didn’t see it yesterday. There was something different about jaejoong, something almost broken looking.


“What are you doing here?!” He snapped. Yunho flinched at his words.


“I want to talk jae” Jaejoong’s breath was coming in short, he trying desperately to hold back the tears circling beneath his eyes. “I want to know about our son”


Jaejoong’s hands pushed his hair from his face, and he gave a desperate looks on his face “Our son? He is MY SON! He never be yours!! And nothing to talk between us anymore!” There were more tears in his eyes now, and jaejoong’s eyes widened as yunho try to step closer over him. Yunho moved to stand over jaejoong, towering his thin figure. Jaejoong flinched as yunho dropping to his knees and dipping his head.


“I don’t care what you do, hit me, kick me, do what ever you want, but please jae.. please let me know the truth” Yunho’s face flashed with hurt and rejection, but he remained where he was. Jaejoong felt a pang of guilt stab at his heart. “I know jae, what I’ve done to you is unforgivable, but if only I can fix it, I would do anything”


“Almighty Jung Yunho pleading in front of filthy orphan” Jaejoong hissed laughing bitterly, tears running down his face, his eyes red. “I wonder how your father react if he know this” He laughed cynically.


“You ruined my life yunho, and now you begging me to telling you the truth?” he said, his voice low and utterly empty “You’re selfish bastard yunho! You always be! Only your dead can make me happy after what you did to me!”




Yunho was searching for words, he hasn’t something to say, he doesn’t want to defend himself, because from the beginning it was his fault “If my death can bring your happiness back I will surrender my life for you jae”


Jaejoong’s face blanked with shock for a brief moment until he found his anger back once more “You’re pathetic yunho, you can do anything with your life, I don’t care.” he said, bitterness stringing his words together. “But don’t you ever try to told taemin about us, I’ll fucking kill you if you did”


Jaejoong shoved yunho’s body away, “Don’t come back again!” a twisted feeling of utter satisfaction snaking through him as he see pain crossing yunho’s face when he fall. Before yunho could utter another word, jaejoong shut the door so hard, giving no chance to talk.


Jaejoong stood before his door, his body become weak as he sliding down to the floor. He still can heard yunho voice pleading for his forgiveness. But he can’t, he can’t forgive yunho yet, because what he has caused in his life was unbearable. Yunho’s voice had been so sad, jaejoong fighting with himself, he doesn’t want to open the door and allow his ex-lover entrance. He refused to show weakness in front of yunho.


“I’ll come again jae..” slowly he heard yunho’s voice behind the door, jaejoong rose from the floor and peeking through the curtain from his window. Yunho made his way towards his car and minutes later he gone.



Jaejoong buried his face into his palm, he closed his eyes as he feeling his tears in his cheeks. He had been promised to himself that he will never cry because of yunho again. But the fact that how he missed his ex-lover, frustrated him. He needed the comfort yunho once used to give when jaejoong can feel safety in the other man embrace.


“Who is that?” The voice make jaejoong startled.


“H..he is my friend” his body trembling when yoochun coming closer. Yoochun took jaejoong’s chin in his hands “Only friend? Then why were you crying?” yoochun raised one of his eye brow.


“I..i just..” Jaejoong bit his lips.


“Why you look so scared? If you telling me the truth why did you trembling?” Yoochun started to kiss his neck.


“No..not now, taemin will be home, I don’t want him to see us” Jaejoong said, he pulling himself away from the man. Yoochun keep a firm grip on his wrists and pulling him back towards him until no space between them anymore.


“Let me remind you jae” Yoochun leaning closer to whisper in jaejoong’s ear “Whatever I want, you should give it to me. You’re my slut and you have to obey me”


Jaejoong release his wrist from yoochun grip and trying to get away from him. “I’m not your slut!” with that jaejoong get one slap on his face.


Yoochun slamming his body against the wall “I think you need more lesson from me to make you realize that I own you” Yoochun punch him hard in the face until jaejoong fell onto the floor. “That guy, who is he?”


“H..he is my… friend”


“Liar!” Yoochun screamed and kick him in the stomach. “Who is he!”


Jaejoong shook his head “I’m not lying, he just my friend” he struggle to break away from him. Yoochun is on top of him while he straddled jaejoong’s waist, trapping him against the floor.


“Are you testing my patient jae?” his voice within anger “If you didn’t tell me who is he, I’ll fuck you in front of taemin, do you really want that?”





Yoochun started to touch his body, his hand slipped into his shirt. “Then tell me who is he?”


Yoochun grabbed jaejoong’s chin and holding it in place to make the smaller man had no choice but to look back at him.


“He..he is my ex..from high school”


“Is he taemin’s father? Yes or no?”


Jaejoong closed his eyes and nodded “Yes”


“I see, your baby has rich father” Yoochun grinned maliciously, at that time jaejoong know that yoochun has planning for this. Bad one. Yoochun rolled jaejoong onto his stomach, he began to shed jaejoong clothes. His hands continue to touch jaejoong.


Jaejoong bit his tongue until he can taste the blood in his mouth when yoochun began to push his way inside his body. He couldn’t help but cry out as he feeling the pain when he was taken roughly by yoochun.











Hi sha! i remember that you’re still underage and i consider for your age, i tried to make my fanfic put less smut scene ~ i want you to feel comfortable to read this story. Thank you for your comments sha, i love it all,  Good luck with your school \(^v^)/

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